Doing Verses Being

I have a confession I need to make. This is a hard one for me to throw out there but I'll just suck it up and give it to you. I have a problem and here it is.

I get caught up in...doing.

Yes. Doing. I've found that it must be one of the hardest things a follow of Jesus struggles with. Here's why. When I get lost in this "doing" I forget about "being." My mind starts running around and it seems like I have a million things to get done. Deadlines, meetings, people, messaging, blogs:), work, yard work, tires on the car, etc, etc, etc.

As of us have that don't we?

So on the surface, I just look busy. We're all busy. The problem lies deeper though. When I find my life gets caught up in "doing" I then evaluate my personal worth based on how much, or how well, I'm doing. Are my jobs getting done? Am I doing a good job? Then of course this mindset falls over to my relationship with God.

It's like I feel I have to be doing His work and doing it the best way to make Him happy. If I don't do it well, then He might get irritated. Often during these times, my prayers center more around things that I doing than anything else.

Ok..so yes God is a God who expects us to do His stuff, His will. Yes. But I've also found that when I focus on just doing, I don't really focus on God. Just me.

I forget that I don't have to do everything, because He has already done it all through His son, Jesus. We can't base our relationship with God solely off of what we do for Him. That would kind of take away the importance of Christ.

Sometimes I think God wants be to just be.

He wants me to sit and be with Him. To listen, to talk, to walk together. To have prayers full of the stuff I'm thankful for instead of just requests all the time and guidance for decisions I feel like I need to make right then.

What a horrid relationship it would be if my son Isaiah always felt he had to be actively doing stuff to make me love him. Or if he was more interested in doing the chores I will someday give him (he's only 2) than he was in me.

That would break my heart as a father.

May you take some time this week. Stop doing. Just be with God. And I pray the peace and fullness you'll receive from that time will leave you thirsty for more.